Steve O Can’t Bear to Watch His Own Documentary

Reality tv star Steve O has come a long way since we reported on his arrest and hospitalization last year. Watching him on Dancing With the Stars this season alsmost made me forget that he was once one of the guys who did insanely painful things to their bodies for laughs in shows like Jackass and Wildboyz.  

In Steve O: Demise and Rise, viewers will get a first hand account of his life as an active addict and his life in recovery. He writes about the documentary in his MySpace blog:

This documentary shows me in really bad shape. I watched it one time, when they first put it together, and had a very bad reaction to it. You’d think that seeing myself like that would really help me stay sober, but watching footage of me doing drugs just triggered insane urges to get loaded. I can’t watch it anymore, but everyone else in America can- on MTV, at 10pm on Sunday, May 3rd.  

I was in a psychiatric ward when I first decided to really try to get sober, imagining that I could “do a lot of good in the world”. Over three months later, having stayed clean the whole time, I was in another psychiatric ward- because I finally realized what an asshole I had become. I’m not trying to stay sober today because I want to save the world, I’m doing it because I don’t want to be that asshole I used to be. If swallowing, snorting, smoking, and huffing drugs and alcohol for years before realizing it turned me into an asshole makes me “inspirational”, that’s pretty funny.

I wish I could say that I’ll stay sober for a long time, but I can’t, and that’s the sad truth. I love you all,

Steve-O

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